New Year Reflections

The Year is Yours. What will you do with it?
I wrote this post about a month ago and after reading it again, I am happy to say that I feel a little more of a sense of peace now. God works in strange ways and sometimes I don't always understand what's planned for me, but I am so excited to see what this year holds.

I was loading the dishwasher this morning and thinking to myself "Wow, I can't believe this is my last year of high school." As I was doing this, a strange feeling came over me. I wouldn't call it sadness or regret because everything that I have experienced and gone through up to this point has changed me in a positive way and shaped the person that I have become. I would say it was more disbelief than anything. I absolutely cannot believe that time has gone by this fast. I cannot believe that 17 years of my life have passed and I'm approaching the time where I have to decide where I am going to college and, ultimately, the time when your "adult" life begins. While I am absolutely so excited to take these next steps in my life, I can't help but feel a really overwhelming feeling of sadness, I guess. I am a huge over thinker and worrier and have been for pretty much my whole life. Now more than ever, I really feel that sense of worry in my life. I have had the best upbringing and, although I've gone through some really hard times, I feel proud of the person I have become. I pray and hope every single day that (someday in the far, far future, haha!) I can give my own children and family the same things that I have been given in my life. I hope that I can be as successful and provide for myself and my family in the same ways that my parents have shown and done for me. The sense of worry comes in when I doubt myself. Will I be good enough? Am I really ready for this next chapter of my life? I have a hard time trusting and having faith in the plan that is so much greater than me and my "small" world. However, as I am realizing that, ready or not, this next phase in my journey is coming, I am also realizing that having faith in something greater than myself is so important. This faith is something that is very personal and private to me, but I know that I cannot make these big decisions without it. I know I am not alone in feeling this wave of emotion approaching my senior year of high school and that provides me with a little sense of relief. Something that I have to remind myself daily is that no matter what you are going through and how scared you might feel, you are never alone. While I am unsure of my path ahead and do feel worried and scared, I know that I am most definitely not alone and that I am 100% capable of all of my dreams and hopes for my future. Although doubt is inevitable sometimes, you can do almost anything if you have faith in yourself.


Freshman Advice

I've gotten several requests from my sister and her friends to share my advice for incoming freshmen. High school has been a really life changing time for me. I feel like I have gained a lot of knowledge and changed tremendously as a person from when I was a freshman (which seems like yesterday!). It hasn't always been the greatest, but I've definitely positively evolved. 

Stay organized.
This kind of goes without saying, but it is so much harder to stay on top of things if you're a slob. Keeping your locker and papers organized will you help you focus on what's really important rather than being stressed out about everything being a mess.

Grades are important.
Don't ever forget this! Freshman year does matter a lot, despite what people might tell you. It is important to start out your high school year with a solid GPA, so you aren't constantly playing catch up. I worked really hard my freshman year and it has really paid off in the long run. 

But grades aren't everything.
A bad grade on a test or not making an A does not define who you are as a person or if you will succeed in life. High school is also about having fun and making memories, so don't get yourself so stressed out about grades that you forget that. My best memories are cheering/going to games and doing fun things with my friends. Now with that being said, if you're failing a class or have an important test, it probably isn't smart to go out every night... It's all about prioritizing. 

People do change.
The people that are your friends freshman year or that have been your friends throughout middle school may not still be your friends 3 years from now, but that's okay. Life is about changing and growing and sometimes growth means leaving people in your past. Sometimes it hurts, but it is okay.

High school may not be the "greatest" years of your life, but that's okay.
I would be lying if I said high school has been a walk in the park because it has been really hard at times. However, I have grown up and learned so much. The best thing about high school is that it's only the beginning of the rest of your life. So many times, I have felt so stressed out like this is the defining chapter of my life and that's really not the case. I see now that I'm a senior that this has been the beginning of my journey, not the end. You will go through times that really hurt, but the biggest blessing is that getting through those moments only makes you a stronger and better person.

If you are going to be a freshman, good luck on your first day!!! I know everyone is nervous before their first day, but you will get the hang of things in no time! It is so exciting to be starting this chapter of your life and really enjoy every minute of it because it does go by so fast. I really can't believe I am going through my last year.