I found this post on my computer from last week and I thought it would be good to share especially during the craziness of my first week living in a new space and going through sorority recruitment. I am loving dorm life and can't wait to get into the swing of things at school :)
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First, I have not abandoned my blog!! I think about it all
the time and still write in my journal almost every day, but when it comes to
publishing my thoughts online, I find it hard to find exactly the words to say.
With all the changes that are coming up in my life, I find it hard to
concentrate on writing about silly, fun things when my mind is constantly
filled with thoughts about bigger things in my life that are coming up. Since I
haven’t written about it yet here, in just three days, I will be moving just 15
minutes down the road to the University of Kentucky. I am so beyond excited,
but with any big life change, a lot of bittersweet feelings come along too. I
ask myself almost everyday how I ever thought I was going to go 10 hours away!
Graduating high school and making the choice to take this
next step is what I’ve basically worked for my whole life. Every thing has led
me here to this point and I’m truly grateful because, so far, I can see how
everything worked itself out like it was supposed to. With this big change, I
am putting complete faith and trust in God that He guides me along this journey
and helps me to accept that what I may think I want might not be what is in
store for me. I’m scared, but I know that everything will work out according to
His plan and somehow I find a lot of peace in that.
As someone that is extremely independent, I am excited to be
on my own and have my own space. I can’t wait to learn, grow, and start a new
chapter of my life. I am going through sorority recruitment (starting
Sunday!!!) and have already joined a few other groups that I feel really
blessed to be apart of right off the bat. So down to why I decided to finally
bite the bullet and write a new post… my mind is going a million different
directions with so many different emotions. While I know that ultimately,
change is so good, I am hesitant towards it. I’ve been in virtually the same
routine for almost 18 years and now that is all coming to an end. What I have
to remind myself is that this is NOT the end, but the beginning of a whole new
world. Despite what I think about during my meltdowns while attempting to pack,
my mom and dad are not going to forget about me and I will always have my
childhood room to come home to.
The hardest thing to grasp is how fast time as flown by. It
seemed like just yesterday I was going into my freshman year of high school. I
can’t believe it’s over. My senior year was one of the best of my life and it
hurts a little bit knowing we won’t share those same experiences again, but I’m
thankful that I have the amazing memories and, even more importantly, lifelong
friends that will be able to look back on that time with me. The best part of
this is that we have so much to look forward to. The greatest thing about life
is that no matter what happens, we can always look ahead to the amazing things
God has in store for us and that is what gets me through the craziness of this big transition.
xo
