Not Loving College, Long Term Goals, and Finding Joy Wherever You Are: Spilling the Tea #2

Whenever I'm in a city that has a Soul Cyele, I have to go because I love it SO much. This is from the Santa Monica studio.

Helloooo from California! I flew in yesterday to surprise my sister who has been out here all week at a music camp. Stay tuned for a vlog documenting the surprise and our awesome weekend. I'm hopping on my soapbox today to spill a little inspirational tea...

I like to think the theme of my blog is wellness. That can be related to food, exercise, being organized and put together, you get it. Something that I've only skimmed the surface on is emotional wellness and being in a good place with your mental health. I want to be really open and honest, I struggle with my confidence. There are good and bad days, but, just like everyone else, I'm on a journey to being my best self. It's really hard to not care what people think about you these days and it is something I'm really working on.

Something that has always really motivated me is the long term. For almost as long as I can remember, I have never really felt like I fit in and, honestly, I'm okay with that. In high school, I was a little anti-social and I just wasn't really into what everyone else was doing, but that didn't really bother me. My end goal was always getting out of my high school and getting to college.

I really expected my freshman year of college to be life changing...In a lot of ways it was, but I expected to join a sorority, go to parties, meet a million friends, and do it all. I quickly realized...I'm not really into frat parties (more on that later), I like working a couple part time jobs, and I had created such high expectations for myself that trying to keep up with my own plans made me feel like I was drowning. I'm grateful that I became really self aware so early on, but it's also left me feeling at times like I'm not cool enough or that I don't belong. It's a constant struggle, but believing in yourself and making sure that everything you do each day is propelling you forward really will motivate you to keep moving. If I don't like where I am on my journey when I wake up in the morning, I think about where I want to be 5 years down the road and allow that to really drive me to keep pushing.

There is never going to be a time in your life or mine that is completely perfect. We have bad days and things go wrong and the more that we push ourselves to fit into our self labeled box to try and make everything perfect, the more unhappy we are going to be. Joy can be found in every single moment. There is always something good we can find in our lives. By turning our negative moments into positive ones and allowing ourselves to be a little imperfect, we tear down the walls that are holding us in and trying to convince us to conform to what other people think we should be.

If anyone is going to show up for you, it has to be yourself. Don't let anyone else tell you what's right for you or how to live your life. I'm not perfect and sometimes I think I have to please everyone. I'm spilling this tea today because, just like you, I'm on a journey. A journey to being my best self, living my best life, and getting where I want to be. A lot of times I look for validation from my friends or Instagram likes, but, you guys, that's so LAME. We are so capable of anything we want and we have to be the ones motivating ourselves to not listen to irrelevant opinions and just go out and get it.

Alright, off the soapbox. I hope you guys enjoyed this week's #spillingthetea. Have a great weekend and keep an eye out for my LA vlog that will be up on my channel Monday or Tuesday.

Thanks for reading. xx

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