Barca Reflections + How to Choose Your Energy

At Castello de S. Jorge in Lisbon, Portugal.

I will admit, I have not been as good about journaling and blogging as I wanted to be in Spain... I can't believe it has been a month since my last post. I thought I would post a recap every week, but I have really been trying to focus on being present in the moment and not worrying about documenting every single thing on camera which has been really refreshing. I've mentioned my thought provoking morning walks a zillion times, but it has been my time that I absolutely cherish in the morning, by myself just listening to a podcast. I reflect every single day and I need to be better about getting those reflections in writing, so that's what you are reading today.

Both photos from Lisbon, aka my new favorite place on Earth.

Before I came over to Barcelona, I was really stressed on how I would be able to create a peaceful routine that was similar to what I had been trying to do at home. I'm a morning person so it's really important for me to set myself up for success in my morning routine. Thankfully, Headspace has changed the game for me and I am still able to meditate almost every day. During the week, I wake up a little earlier and sit in my bed in meditate and if I'm traveling, I can do it on the bus to the airport or on a plane. It changes my mood drastically and gives me space in my mind to focus on what really matters throughout my day. I highly recommend it.

Today in my meditation the idea was presented that anxiety and negative feelings are like dark clouds covering up a blue sky. The blue sky is always there, but sometimes the clouds are in the way. Similarly, I guess we can think of our dreams and the person we're constantly striving to be as our own personal blue sky. Some days are cloudy, but other days we feel on top of the world, sunny and 75. I guess the take home message here (for me anyways) is that the person that we want to be is who we already are, the clouds get in the way- our fears, self imposed limitations, etc. The difference between the weather and our lives is that every day we are faced with a choice: is it going to be a sunny day or a stormy day? We get to choose. A lot of times, my anxiety or negative attitude follows me because it's a habit that I can't kick. I'm used to feeling anxious and, although I'm uncomfortable, it's an easier and more comfortable choice. However, what we choose to feel every day is either revealing or covering up that blue sky.

Beautiful blue sky views from Castello de S. Jorge.

Time Out Market Lisboa

For me, my focus right now is finding peace. Being at peace in my mind, spirit, and body, but also with the negative energy that has come into my life in the past. Choosing a positive energy is quite simple if we allow it to be. Choosing to say no to negative people, situations, or energies is the way to move forward and get to a peaceful state. I know you have experienced some form of negative energy at some point in your life. You can feel it the second you walk in the room! But have you ever thought to yourself, "you know what? I'm actually going to say no to letting this into my life." It's something I recently realized on a morning walk and am incorporating that into my journey to finding peace. It seems crazy and maybe even a little silly to place such an emphasis on just saying no, but it's actually harder than you might think.

I posted about this on my Instagram story last week, but I was working on a school project with two girls that I had just met and their energy was so positive, it was contagious. It really lit me up and made me feel like I needed to share that energy and that kindness and joy to everyone. So often, we dump our problems on other people- it's normal and it's okay to a certain extent. But we all have that one friend or even those couple of days where we are the friend that is "the dumper": filling up someone else's time and energy with whatever negativity and stress is going on in our life. Unfortunately, I can think of a couple times where I've been a dumper.

Kind of similarly, something I've noticed since being away is that I let the thoughts, opinions, and actions of other people have too significant of an impact on my energy. Whether it's thoughts on my future career or my relationship or not getting some validation or credit that I think I've earned, it seems like things I can't really change are negatively impacting my energy. What's even more frustrating is that I'm not saying no! I'm the one that is allowing that into my life.

Snaps from my daily walk in Barcelona.

My roomie, fellow Gemini, and soul sister Jess. Seriously could not be more thankful that the universe brought us together.

Circling back to my main point here, after I met with those girls, I felt so inspired and energetic and really motivated to only be a positive energy for someone else. It can change someone's whole day to share your light and kindness instead of being a negativity dumper and I realized in that moment that that is exactly who I want to be. We have the power literally every second of every day to choose the blue sky. When we walk into room, we are choosing to either share a positive energy or a negative one. We all make mistakes, but being able to be aware of the present moment and check yourself is what counts.

Wow that was a lot! If you're still reading, you rock! I guess I've had a lot on my mind in the past month haha. While I share a lot about my life on my blog, I always try to think about what I want the takeaway to be and, lately, I think my focus is being able to share some positive energy. In a world where there seems to be so much negativity, my goal is to just share my journey to choosing to find the light and good energy in every moment.

Thanks for reading. xx

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